Shock

So yeah... it's been a while since I've published anything on here.  But here is the basic low down.  I haven't had time to post in the past few months because life has been absolutely insane.  The biggest changes?  I have decided to attend the University of Missouri (Mizzou) in the fall as a duel degree student in Journalism and Theatre (basically, I will earn a BJ (it's a degree, you five year olds) and a BA).  I already have my roommate and my address and now a pair of warm boots.  I still have to buy my first ever, real, warm, snow/freezing temperature worthy coat.  So, that should be thrilling.  I keep making jokes about how I didn't pick Mizzou for the weather.  Even the people who live there say the weather sucks, and I have enough trouble with California weather.  Also, I'm writing this post from new new Mac... which is really pretty, but I have been feeling very blond navigating through it's different features when I don't speak "Mac" yet.  That will also explain why this post has no pictures....
Any who, I leave in early August for school, so I'm just enjoying my summer right now and the many trips I have been taking.  The most noteworthy one was definitely the "Senior Trip" I took with five of my best friends!  We drove down I-5 to Disneyland and spent a day there before driving down to Del Mar and spending five days together at the beach.  My friends are awesome!  We made tons of good food, never had a disagreement and created tons of inside jokes.  I am really going to miss them next year.  We've realized how weird it is going to be without each other and I'm trying to take comfort in the accessibility of modern technology.  For now that's it.  I will be posting more soon.  Hopefully something a bit more interesting... maybe with some cool pictures.  Enjoy life!  (if you actually read my blog.... and well, same to you if you don't)!

College Update!

Current college progress:
Applied: 8
In progress:  0 I AM DONE!!!!
Declined: 0
Accepted: 4- Thank you Mizzou, University of the Pacific, University of Oregon, and George Mason University!
Essay Drafts Written: No idea.... and I'm still writing for scholarships

Having the pressure of applications removed is a wonderful feeling.  Although, there is still plenty to do ALL the time it feels like I can breath again.  Second semester is going to be insane, but I have decided to just ride the wave and make an effort to enjoy the end of my high school experience. 

Finals Finals Finals Finals

Just a few days until we're second semester seniors!  I'm still not sure if that will help anything, life will still be crazy probably, but it sounds relieving.  So I'm just gonna keep thinking that.  :)

College Update!

Current college progress:
Applied: 6
In progress:  2 (almost done!!!! Chapman and Puget Sound you are getting my apps this week!!)
Declined: 0
Accepted: 3- Thank you Mizzou, University of the Pacific, and University of Oregon
Essay Drafts Written: Lost track

So close to this process being over!!! Then I just have to wait.... keeping my figures crossed tight! 

Looking back

Ten

Time has never felt so distorted to me 

ten feels like less than one 

and although the raw burn has eased 

we are still weighted by a heavy throb. 

I yearn to hear your laughs

see your smiles, feel your excitement

and experience your futures

which are now mere fantasy

I wish I could have done as much for you

as you did for me.

You taught me what it means to truly love life

and embrace the little things

I hope you're well

I hope your possibilities are limitless 

and I hope you know how much I love you

How much we all love you. 

For the past ten months I have been composing little messages like the one above constantly.  They're not works of art, but they express what I am feeling.  Two of my closest friends, Matt Miller and Gavin Powell passed away last February during a rafting accident.  They were incredible, inspirational members of our community who had very promising futures ahead of them.  Things haven't been the same without them.  They are greatly missed.  

Saturday Night

My parents are at a party, my sister is with a friend working at a party an I am at home... sitting on my couch... yelling at the end of the republican debate.... such a fun night :P

InSaNiTy

Well, just when I thought things couldn't get crazier... they did.  Most of by big college applications are out of the way now, but I still have to rack up a ton of scholarships and grants.
Current college progress:
Applied: 5
In progress:  2
Declined: 0
Accepted: 1- Mizzou :)
Essay Drafts Written: Lost track

Also, callbacks for the spring musical, The Music Man, were tonight and I have no idea how the cast list is going to look.  I sang for two parts, but he only had us read for one.  Fingers crossed I get something :)